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2008-04-26T15:46:00.001+08:00

Even now, at this point of time, I feel so lost. I hope u r happy Izzati.

And I also hope you've calm down and can start to think.

I miss u tho.

2008-04-25T12:12:00.001+08:00

I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY!

2008-04-22T15:15:00.002+08:00

I need you take care of me.

Izzati, can u here me? Can u feel me?

I need you in my life. You've always been there for me.

I need you in my heart Izzati.

2 years u've been inside me.

Haiz. I know I can love you more than I ever could

I know I can do it. And I know that you will not be hurt again.

~to try and to say I can it's 2 different things. Your brain will be just trying, but to say I can, somehow in the end, you'll have the motivation and you will succeed~

2008-04-21T10:41:00.000+08:00

Salam Terakhir

Sampaikan salam buat semua
Salam terakhir salam teristimewa
Kepada kau yang tersayang
Pada teman yang ku kenang
Pemergian ku ini tak dirancang

Usah bertanya mengapa aku
Mengucap salam terakhir kepada mu
Kerna waktu berputaran
Bimbang tak berkesempatan
Melahirkan kerinduan terhadapmu

Demi sebuah kenyataan
Yang amat menyakitkan
Aku yang tidak berdaya
Hanya berserah padaNya

Salam akhir
Salam yang teristimewa
KepadaNya ku memohon keampunan
MelaluiNya ku beri kemaafan
Kepadamu

Andainya aku punya waktu
MASIH KU INGIN MENGULANGI SEMULA
SAAT INDAH BERSAMAMU
Sayang tak berkesempatan
Abadikan saja salam ku di ingatan

Salam ku yang terakhir

2008-04-19T10:42:00.003+08:00

To her,

I know i've been defeated. Yes. All my mistakes, which u've kept inside you for the past 2 years finally explode and you dropped the bombshell on me.

I acknowledged that. The last opportunity was not given to repent and make up, but it's okie. I'll try to stabilize myself. It' will be a very slow painful healing journey for me.

The once boyfriend of hers is now on his knees, trying to get up very slowly.

Izzati, I still love you. Though you may have hurt me in this way, I've forgiven you. All your mistakes, I've forgiven them. I don't want you to be hurt further dear.

Thanks for for giving me such a wonderful memories throughout these 2 years. Thanks for teaching me what's love is really like. If only I can have the chance once again, I would like love you all over again. . .if only. . . .

Thanks for guiding me my way around. All these wonderful memories will always be deeply ethced in my heart. And I shall only remember all this wonderful ones.

I'm a change man now. I've learnt my painful lesson once again, this time, it's even painful.

You have all the qualities I look for in a long term relationship. You just hit it off so well with my parents. Espcially my mum, she has been asking me about you. She longs to see you. Definitely I won't be able to find a girl, which has all your qualities, not typical, fun, romantic, mature and all of it. You just have all of it.

Thanks for standing by me throughout my NS life. Thanks for being there for me when I needed you. You just make my life complete, but now, it's empty once again.

Thanks for teaching me what respect it. I value the lessons you've taught me.

I'm a changed man now. Whatever I promised you before this, I will honour my word. I'll still visit your parents. My heart is asking forgiveness from your parents. Hakim and haikal, I miss them but I will spend time with them. I don't want to disappear just like that from their life. At least let me be a big brother to them cos I've never had a taste of what sibling love and real parent love is like.

The warmth I get from your parents and bibik is just so unbelieveable. Even nyai and yai. I've never tasted that kind of warmth in my 23 years of life. I'll really miss that very much.

Let time prove to you how much I've change. True I can't turn back time and edit the mistakes I've done towards you, but at least I can make it up and repay for all my sins that I've commited towards you.

It was never your mistake from the start. You've always been the one for me. The ONE. But it seems that it's never to be forever even though I hope for it very much, from day to day.

I'll be waiting for you here dear. I just don't want you to make harsh decision and be hurt again. I know whatever I'm saying now will not change you a bit. Neither will it make you think. I'm really suffering here. Alone and I've lose the person closest to my heart. You have someone new to turn to, but not me.

But I just hope one day, HE(god) will open up your heart and bring the two of us together again. Perhaps, by then, you'll come to realise that this is the change Azri and that the change is a sincere one and it's not just for the sake of changing it.And that this Azri is willing to love you all over again. Insyallah.

Everyday, I pray for that.

Thx Chien for listening to me. You too Peijun.

What I've promised you, I shall honour that promise. I respect you for who you are, and not for what you are. Time and space that you've always wanted, you'll have lot's of it in future.

But please, I beg you, not to remove the ring on your finger. You'll always have a special place in my heart where you belong. I'll still be your special friend for you to confide in me for just about anything.

I'll be here for you dearest Izzati. I'm typing this entry with tears rolling down my eyes. Yes I know I'm not romantic, handsome all that, but I know how to love someone deep down.

I miss you saying 'I miss you'
I miss you saying 'I love you'

And now, I don't get to hear that from you ever again. I'll just have to look at your pictures and messages to comfort myself and to just playback the wonderful memories I have with you to make me smile.

I'll be here waiting for you quietly. I love you Izzati come what may.

Signing off,
Azri.

I'll do anything

2008-04-17T14:11:00.007+08:00

Time check : 0930hrs

SO today, after some minor where-to-eat-for-breakfast discussion, finally we settled for Ya Kun Kaya Toast. It's been long. She had this toast dip meal, and I had my usual, tea, 2 half boil eggs and kaya-butter spread.

She started sch at 11 tdy, so after finishing breakfast, we had an hour to spare. And so, I decided to take a bus with her to Yishun, take a train from there and alight at YCK. Well of course I know, we were gonna be late, but I didn't want her to leave so soon. It was so nice to have her lying down on my shoulder throughout the whole journey.

I know she's been longing for a bus ride and I'll do anything for her.

Arrived at Yishun around 1050hrs. Being my mistake, we hailed a cab and headed for NYP. Journey gonna end soon, and I had to leave her. Heart heavy.

I've change, I'll do anything for you, I love you

Headed home after that. I can't help but think. It was never her mistake from the start. It was mine. And now, I regret. I only need that chance to prove myself. Pls help me god.

It will never hurt to be you again. I promise you

Come back into my arms, I'm so alone. I'm down on my knees
I love you

I was wrong,I'm to blame,I was so untrue.

In my life

There's just an empty space.

All my dreams are lost,I'm wasting away.Forgive me, girl.

Come back into my arms, I'm so alone. I'm down on my knees

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~When I think of what I have, and this chance nearly lost,

I can't help but break down and cry~

~Now I see what love means~

YOU MAKE ME COMPLETE DEAR

2008-04-14T12:05:00.003+08:00

Okie. It's been reeeeeaaallllll long since I last blog. Well, this isn't my account either, it's hers.

The reason why I'm using her account to blog is that, somehow or rather, I just need to tell her that; no 1, she's being appreciated, no 2: she's being loved!! Yes, she is.

You see, the past few days has been an unpleasant one for both of us. That unfortunate incident has made me realise that she's a very important person in my life and yes, now matter how mushy it sounds or how do u people want to put it, I CAN'T be LOSING her.

I do admit that I've been taking her for granted, for quite a long time. But never did I once let my love for her fade away.

~forgive me honey?~

And so, the entry here is dedicated to darling dearest Izzati for having love me dearly for the past 2 years. And so patiently tolerating my nonsense. Thx honey! 2 years and still counting.

I may not be the romantic type, I may not have the looks, I may not have the special qualities you need, but I promise I'll make you feel special, secure and being showered with love and warmth. This i promise you :)

I love you lots!!

~I promise I'll change~

~i hope u like the surprise, it could have been better. .heheh~

~di sebalik deruan khatulistiwa~
~tempat asalnya satira KISAH KITA~

2008-04-05T21:17:00.003+08:00

sigh..

Im feeling all things are done right but yet wrong at the same time.
i want it but im just cant make up my mind.
I noe whats best for me but i fear of hurting other's feeling
It has alwaes been Me from the start.
Can never decide for my own destiny and happiness.
I fear being judged by others.
My life has been all about others' happiness and seldom about mine.
What else am i to do.
Ive put in everything.
Everything.
Oh well.
It really hurts to be me.
It hurts......and exhausted.

~Chasing pavements by Adele~

I've made up my mind,
No need to think it over,
If i'm wrong I aint right,
No need to look no further,
This ain't lust,
is love but,

If i tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And thats exactly what i need to do,
If i'm in love with you,

Should i give up,Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Wait then as my heart drops,
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it....

2008-04-01T14:44:00.002+08:00

wokies...

less than 2 weeks to the end of hols.
Brace yrself, izzati..

Looking back..i truly njoyed the past daes and weeks..
Meeting new peeps at the zoo..knowing more of them.
They are simply..fun.
I had never imagined it was so pleasurable to work there.
I looked forward to every day waorking at that place.

hahaha. REaali nice people. Different age but nevertheless..same frequency of gila-gila-ness
hmm..woikes..those are lela, badrin, haz, zuhairi, iskandar..plus a few more of them.
They truly makes gg to work worth it.
*beams*
Simply..yummy yummy people

However not to forget..the UNGlams..
Been weeks that we had not meet up. Miss you lots.

Love them

Love. me

2008-03-12T17:48:00.002+08:00

oh ryte...
tis been raining since forever.
BRrr.. This morning was a no-work dae for me.
Despite loving to tuck in bed in lil longer, i decided to fetch him from werk.
Went to sembawang for a bfst. Caught a movie there and went hme.
Rented some movie- Music and Lyrics and Stardust.
M&L was alryte. Bahhhhhh....
Nthg else for me to do except rotting. Outside it was still raining.

hmm..
there are so many things i have yet to do during this hols.
2 weeks down..5 more to go. And time past so fast.
Been going out w my darlings last week.
Went out w pj last thurs. OMG.
We chilled out at TCC at citylink.
It was my first.
LOL. YAi!!!. expensive taste once in a while. hahaha.
But the dessert was awwesoome. Th chocolate that oozed out from the cake was... woah.
I want more.
Yeah yeah. More of that = more calories.
Calories calories. Ive been taken a lot of that these daes.
No longer the disciplined Me.
During the meeting up session with the dalings, i managed to get myself a small bag. And a white dress. I love it. nah nah nah.
Plus a dress that pj and firda gave to me. Lovely.!! thanks dearies. :) Boy....

Within like 3 weeks i have 3 bags added to my collection.
One of which is a realli beautiful nike bag by the unglams!
hahaha. been carrying it to KL and my workplace :)

Working at the zoo suddenly seems like a joy for me.
Working during weekdaes feels different from the weekends'.
No stress or watever.
Great people. Great laughs :D
There are some chinese nationals who came to buy the tix.
CAnt speak englisg at all.
So i attempted to use my 50 cents worth of my chinese language.
it was exhilarating esp when it was raining at that moment.

xian zai...xia yu ler..
wo xiang ni he ka fe..
lol..
it was ...cool. hahaha at least my experiences talking to my friends in chinese help me
yeah...
hahaha.

orytes..
chiao for now.

2008-03-07T08:43:00.008+08:00

hiak hiak hiak!!!!
hello people!
hahaha.

Like u guys have already known (obviously! hahha)
tis been a long long long time...eons since i ve updated this blog.
hahaa
very the lazy eh.
think i may need an assistant or shtg to update this blog.. hahaha
Any TAKERS????!!!!

OH weellll..
So for now..lemme do some short snippets on the things that ahve been happening in my life

hmmm...
Highlight of this year..
My trip to KL.
It was great. REceived 2 slices of starbucks' cake from my admirer. lol.
It was awesome! and sang for me the short version of the happy bdae song in advance
*grinzzzzzz

Next was on my bdae. This admirer of mine totally made me fell for him.
Thou i expected a suprise from him, i was not very hopeful.
but wow wow wow... BOY.. U suprised me.
So what this admirer of mine did was he drove us to sentosa. As planned i cooked.
But what i didnt expect was a stalk of white rose..a nike water bottle and a box of donuts in the BOOt of the car!!!
Thou some of you mae think it was kinda inexpensive, but hey..he hasnt earn like 5k a month. hahaha so he was excused lah..
But it was the thought and the effort put it that counts. :)

For my only admirer... :)
Rihanna Feat Ne-yo: HAte How much I Love you

As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)

But you won't let me
You upset me boy
And then you kiss my forehead
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

2007-12-31T22:16:00.000+08:00

heyhey....
tis been lyke..damn long sincve ive blogged.

Ok. So..here i am sitted in front of my comp at 10.18 pm of 31.12
AT HOME.
what merrymaking. woo.
BOring.
IM not into countdown, family outing will do..but there's none tonight.
DEar is on duty at this moment.
AT town or elsewhere, doing surveillance.
At least he's doing sthg interesting enough- for the new year.
For the 2 consecutive year, we din manage to celebrate it tgt.

Holiday is coming to an end.
Boohoo.

To loved frens, a very rawking 2008 for you guys.
:)

2007-12-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

hurrrah..
Feels like holiday has started.
After a bad end to the ICAs paper.
Darn.

Oh.
Today, i met up w chien and ahxi :)
Just so glad to meet w em..
Cheers.
Went to turf city for awhile.
Went back home..gave chien a good suprise. haha
Drove her to westmall. -beams-
we had a slice of cake, unsweetened Snappel and salad
at the coffee bean.
Planning to meet up agian nxt week.. :)
Oh well.

Hols nxt week..N theres nthg much i can do.
Oryte.
Chiao.

2007-12-08T09:57:00.000+08:00

>>
A school week that was very long and tiring.
Anatomy prac test was ok-ok.
So shag by the time friday arrived.
But i ended the school week with the accompany of
realli rawking frens. haha.

The unglams celebrated phyphy bdae.
lol.
Fad and suling bought a..erms Winxclub Cake.
hahha.
A cake for a 19 year old teen is very...ummm.
But it was very fun
Evil side of me psycho suling and chipchip
to play with the cream cake.
So the fun started.
me,suling,chip and phy were kinda had cream on our shirts and faces.
Cleverly fad, cindy and ale ran awae..
haha. But obviously we din let ale and fad off. :)
Loves!

after that we went to heeren's for razi's gig.
It was like so fun n Wow!
seems like having a mini class outing. :)
Josh, marian, alvin,cindy k, yuen wan and val (+ their bfs)
Unglams + (fad's and cindy's bfs)
Hasha. we were like kinda screaming for razi, who was
on the stage.
Kicking good time. :)

Headed to dinner at far east after that.
Took awhile cos had to wait for seats.
Alas, we had 2 round tables.
Felt so family-as said by suling.
haha.
Everyone was laughing n all-plus the bdae girls.
:) :)

And so..we really had a great time ytd.
OH phy..n im glad that you were having a great time too ytd
:). Loves.

Happy biRtHDaYYYYY Phy and MArian.

2007-11-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

hello bikini bottom!

Hehe. I realised that upon posting the previous update,
some of you thought that there was prob btwn me n azri.
Not exactly. It was the time of the month. So it might be my ranging hormones..
that caused me to feel emotionally imbalance over tiny things.
:)

So todae, otw to the canteen during break..
I received a msg
I,together with 3 of the Unglams ,was selected for the Cambodia trip
in March.
For roughly, 3 weeks.
I dont noe how shd i be feeling. Happy? Excited?
MOre of a heavy feeling,i guess.
Sigh.
The reason is him.
He's supportive..
But im dead lah..3 weeks w/o him.
Oh God.
The longest time we din meet was during his BMT-10 daes.
Nthg compared to 18 daes.
Roar. But tis 4 months away.
Ok. i shall chill.
continue to panic in feb.
:)
Loves.

2007-11-25T21:48:00.000+08:00

hello world.

Feeling like a crap.
Detached.
Unappreciated.
SImple things make me glows.
But what simple things are there for me, aniwae?
None.
Simply none.
Simply not being understood.

Detached again. Attached again
TIs just a vicious cycle

2007-11-21T22:00:00.000+08:00

Was otw home from my clinical at sengkang.
Listened to mp3. Started to emo-ing.
Freak. I think i was teary...i held back.
Just thinking abt it makes me ...sigh.
6 daes gone.
Miss him.
BUt dere's nthg he can do abt it.
O.M.G
Felt the distance.
I hope dis will end soon.
Roar! I miss him.
Period.

2007-11-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

..hoho.

Daes seems to past so fast.
I think i agree with ale theory of time. hahah.
Boy. U cant feel that a day has past. blablabla.

YTd..met w malim for a movie..
We cant seem to decide at first.
BUt he was fine w watching Stardust.
LOl. He din think it was gg to b nice since it's a fantasy.
And thru out the movie, he actually enjoyed it.
With me, gasping and all. hahha.
THe show was reaaaali cool.
the plot was neat.
yup. BUT there wasnt enough of the fighting scene.
But 4 stars for stardust.
5 stars for triston!!!
MAeb i should watch it again someday when im free.
Someday.

2007-11-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

helo bikini bottom!
ay ay Captain!

Tomorrow marks our ** mth ann :)
Boohoo. But tis been months since we celebrated it on the dae itself
as it fell on the daes he was werking.
So yep.

Nevertheless, life is great.
Yeah. Love is great.

But i realli miss my bud-buds. <3
LOtsa love to Pj, firda, Chien and peixi.
Life's been rather dull w/o all of you.
So wana go out but i duno when.
Loves. Loves.

2007-11-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

helo helo.

Im bored. Bahh! Todae was ok,oryte.
School finished at noon.. thank god.
Dis week was kinda draining.
:). After accompanying ale, fad and suling in sch..
me and miss chipndale went to bugis to pay my fine.
(Thanks darlings for the contribution.)
Using the S.A.M was quick and easy lah. Hehe.
We went to the bank n had our lunch at Deli. haha.
Erm, concluded that pizza hut serves bettr food. whoops.
yup.
We wok rounds. (J8 gave me a headache.)
planned to watch stardust but yikes the showtimes were too late.
hahah. we were damn like aunties when we tried to find papers to look
up the movie showtimes. haha
oh well. Not fated to watch movie todae. bah!

Other times maybe. :)

2007-11-08T00:43:00.000+08:00

Hello, hello.

Todae's not so bad dae.
Clinical was fun.

Went out for dinner w the malim,yazid and nigel.
REalli gila bunch of guys.
Hmm.
Malim wants me to intro him in my blog b4 i wrote his name
cos he thinks it's more appropriate.. haha. (tat guy!)
(i shall at the end of my blog. haha)
He brought us to dis realli cool mediteranean restaurant
(wrong spelling, i noe).
The food is great. We sat on a platform instead of chairs.
Which i think was awesome.
So much time dere, chatting, cam-whoring..blablabla..
hehehe. All in all. I had a great time. :)
Below are the pics!!! njoy em.

Who is malim..? (hahaha)
-the guy in grey
-was my sec sch fren. frens since sec 1.
-Used to be shorter than me.
Now? look at the pic n u'll noe it.
hahah.
-Sailor
-hmm..
-has few gay partners. heh. (it's just our grp's joke)
-Single, available n eligible. :)

hahaha.
Okie!

2007-11-08T00:38:00.000+08:00

2007-11-08T00:31:00.000+08:00

Dining and chilling out at a cool restaurant.

3rd try.. go!

Malim's trying to stab me. Erm.. nigel?

PART of the set meals. Yummylicious

2007-11-03T23:40:00.001+08:00

To only him...
For every word here..it's true

I wont talk,I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I dont look
But deep inside...In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

.........
Its time to try......

Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

2007-11-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me
Sorry... you can put that blame on me

Im Sorry

The girl who makes it wrong everitime.
Tis a long, exhausting journey
But i shall stay here while i can
It's my promise

2007-10-31T21:18:00.000+08:00

Haloha!!!
OMG. Been decade since i blogged. So many things.
Ryte. Shall start w...

This hari raya, spend more daes visiting my n his frens, compared to my relatives' hse.
It was ok. nice.
Met some of his frens, ive nv met b4. Kinda cool la.
So that dae, we both went out w the unglams. Fun.
Hahaha.
Aft that we went to Malim's hse 4 dinner. A late one.
:) Veri glad to mit him and nigel n yazid.
Tis kinda small n cosy meet-up. Glad.

.... So todae was the first clinical.
Sent to Eipic Moral centre and BAnyan Home.
Truly eye opening exp to werk w diff kinds of ppl.
I felt that im very lucky -tears-
Looking 4ward to nxt wed. :)
Hugs to the kids and the uncles. loves.

2007-10-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

Hello Bikini Bottom!

Today, marks the SECOND dae of school. BUt everyone seems so shagged.
Timetable totally sucks. It's killing us.
Projects starting to pile up.
Boring lecturers. Bah!!
Hw am i getting thru this?

Otw home-emoing in the bus...
BEEP BEEP (my hp beeps)

Bro: hello, sis. We are gg to bro aszri's hse.,
Me: Are u serious?
( That means my parents are meeting his! YIkes!! )
Bro: Ya. Tok to Papa.
Me: U guys gg to azri's hse?
Papa: Ya.
Me: Yikes!!!!!!

ANd so wearing what i wore for sch todae, i went raya to his hse. Visit his mom.
Azri was werking nite shift. So tis me alone. GASP!! Thank God the DADs noe each other.
But i felt so odd cos azri's not ard when our parents met. (u noe what i mean?)
HEhe. Thruout the visit, everything went well. The moms tok to each other v well.
Felt relaxed. So i just played w the untamed hamsters w my bros.
Hehe.

Then his papa told us that they'll cum to our hse to raya soon. :)
Hope azri's gg to my hse on that dae.
Hahaha. Cfm he's gona b nervous like i did few hrs ago...
Weeeeeeeeeeee...

Happy me.
LOve you honey.
Hope to go raya w you dis weekend. :) x10

2007-10-10T12:56:00.000+08:00

Haloha!!!
*chuckle.

And so..ive told my parents about my license.
hahak. During the pre-dawn meal.
They were suprised! *beams

I broke the great news to my Mr Crabby in his car after we shop2
for baju kurong at geylang ytd.
LEft my temp. license in his car seat.
Hehe. Then he saw it. Yeay!!!!!!!!!!
He was suprised too!
Yum yum! i lurveeeeeeee to suprise people. :D

So- ytd after werk we wnt to geylang.
Stuffy. Hot. Many many people.
We took like almost 2 hrs.
He wants us grey/silver dis year. :)
And i ve found one. BUt there were none left!!
The colour is damn nice lah.
Boohoo.
Bought his first.
Den searched like siao for mine. Same colour.
Thank god, we found mine.
hehehehhe. I like!!

Been long since i shopped w him. heh. Hard time.
But i appreciated those moments-shop2 for his clothes.
Ya..like once a year thing. Hehs.

And oh great. I gt like an ulcer in my eyes! for the 2 nd time. Rahh.
what it means???!!!!! Wah!!!! NO contact lens for hari raya lah!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kaoxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
Specs for that big dae?!!!!!
INsane!!!
Grrrr...
Not fair.
Pray hard the ulcer isnt serious...

Signin out...
I cant WAIT to drive my DEar Crabby and My parents LAhhhhhhh!!!!!!

2007-10-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

...100000 of broken pieces of heart
...10000 drop of tears
...11 mths
...4 instructors (1 perm & 3 temp)
...3 attempts in the past

...tis all about just 1 gerl

YEAH BABEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At last.................
You go gerl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This time, i kept from everybody including my loved ones- my family, friends, and MR Crabby Azri.
NObody noes.
Tis been 8 hours.
Of adrenaline rush and all. Excitement.
Wakakakakakakka.
NOBODY.
hehehehe.
I'VE GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After months of desperation to drive my dad's car and his dad's car......
Lalallalalalalallalallalalalallaalalalala

I wana thank HIM for making it happen. (i prayed so hard to him)
alhamdulillah.. :)
Everything is fated.
I had gotten the same TPolice for this afternn's test.
He took me for the 2nd consecutive time.
lol. i guess he pitied me?
I wana thank the TP too! -Heng Ah Meng (dun luff, but that's his name)

So after i gt the result, we watched the video.
I made a fren there. Just for that moment.
hahahhaa
Yup
Din call anibody except my Instructor-william.
SOOOOOOOOOOO happi but dunno hu to hug. hahaha
Anti-climax .. but i went for werk after that. LOl.

I, so wana suprise him and my parents.
To my honey: hahaha. I will drive you this hari rayer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But i duno hw to break the great news to my parents. hahha. treat dinner. i duno.
BUt im sure they are into A GREAt suprise.
*loves*

2007-10-03T14:33:00.000+08:00

Im feeling scared.
That dae is cuming pretty quickly.
After months of havin sort of not-so-good luck,
i prayed that,that dae will be a better one. It has to be.
I'll just feel crashed if i wont.
Umpteen times.
This-has to be it.

2007-10-02T12:07:00.000+08:00

Huraah!!! I did it!
heheehe.
TIme flies past. It's left w ten daes before hari raya.
Oh boy.
This cumin celebration marks the 2nd time im raya-ing w dearie. Weehee.
Yup. And i cant wait to buy baju kurong w him! Hehe. First time.
Ive bought a set w my family.
I duno. Sadly enuff-or not, tis black.
Everydae wear black. HAri raya also must wear black! hen sian.
But that dae,din realli see lotsa of nice baju kurong w nice colour.
SO ended up w this. I love the design thou. Hehehee. So the transparent.
Tot of buying Kebaya, dis year. But oh...i lack the curves. Just have to make do with what i have.
... Huraay. So we plan to go geylang nxt tues.
Wonder wat it will be like shopping w him. For his clothes too. lol.
He said he wants it cream-colour. BUt light colour makes me look fat. hmmmm. Darn.

BOy.....STill few daes before i meet him to geylang. Have to brave the customers at CS these week.
They make me wana ROAR!
SOme cust are so idiotic.
THat dae, i alomost cried. This old man. I was serving cust who was before him
N i was finding the code n stuffs. the cust whom i was serving din utter a word. An the old man said in his audible voice. Loud enuff for ppl who were w/in 10m range to hear..
''This girl is slow. CAn sumbody help her.''
OUCH!!!!!!!!
A colleague of mine came to help me.
Kept my cool. But i was teary.
Stupid man.
My whole dae was spoilt. Totally no mood.
wonder how my daes in weeks to cum..will b like at CS. Bleah!!!!

2007-09-28T15:32:00.000+08:00

he.he.he
Under COnstruction.

2007-09-22T13:04:00.000+08:00

time to take a break.
been werking almost everydae.
Hehs.
Oh well...but ytd was fun at Gelatissimo.
W the accompany of vera and ___ (i forgot the new gerl's name)
PLus Farid. Lol. a funny guy.
Shared a thing or two.
Weird that he told me bout the things he did (n y he's tired in the fasting mth)
Makes the long werking hours at Gelati feels short.
Haha.
He cudnt believe i had not been clubbing before.
lols. Serious or not,he asked me to go clubbing ytd.
Like real i wud go.
Fun times! yeah!

2007-09-12T09:54:00.001+08:00

friends..
guess what?!
i woke up w a swollen eye
like a month ago
except tis nw on the left eye!!!!!
roar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-09-10T22:25:00.000+08:00

hey babey.
Oh.
Todae was ok.cool.happy.
Met up w a fren of mine-yazid for an early lunch.
Hahs. Said meeting up w him reminds him of pizza..
So we went pizza hut.
Haha.Thank god.theres student meal. (he bought one thou he's no longer one )
Im broke!
After that, we went on separate ways.
Me..gg to town. Job trng.
Nt bad. One of my new colleagues, Ahmad, keep making fun of a new gerl.
Naming her a GaTe. (cos he thinks she's thin)
2 hrs of scooping and then serve the customers.
My wrist hurts.
Hehes. But i hope i will have more fun there.
Well..at least it's better than doing nthg at home :)
.
.
sigh. i think im losing it.

2007-09-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

Maro0n 5
Wake Up Call
"
...If u needed love (I do need love)
Well then ask for love (I did ask for love)
Could have given love... (Where's the love?)
...Would have bled to make you happy
You didnt need to treat me that way
And now you beat me at my own game
And now i find you sleeping soundly...

2007-09-04T10:10:00.000+08:00

I hate her..!
2007 isnt a good year.
It wasnt and still hasnt been a good year.
Instead the worst year since she was born-i swear.
It's either she's run out of luck or she's just plain stupid and uncapable of doing SIMPLE things.
IT sucks, Sucks. Sucks.
She's stupid. Dumb. Loser.
She just cant get things right!!
Oh freak!
SHE"S ME!
Ive never feel so stupid before.
Im gone.

2007-08-29T10:50:00.000+08:00

SO early in the morning..n it was raining outside.
Woohoo! i wana slp. BUT no.
CAlled phyphy n tok.
PLanned to highlight my hair todae. :)
I hope so badly that BnJ's will call us todae.
I wana jobs!
.
.
.
Online, theres dis Chinese horoscope stuffs.
So here i am at 1040 played it-to see hw accurate it is.
-write down no 1 to 11..and answer the questions. DO not cheat.
Those no and names and songs were randomly picked by me.
The result were:
1) 78 -my lucky number (ermms...)
2)87- the no of ppl hu like me ( reaali..? ryte)
3)Azri - the person that u love ( zhen de? hahah :) )
4) Azri- the person that u care for the most ( criously..? :p)
5)Chien- the person who knows you VERY well ( indeed! -beams-)
6)Phy- my lucky star ( no doubt.. esp during shopping :) )
7) (Secret)
8) (song title) LOve me- the song that matches with the person in no 3.
9) Stranger- the song for the person in no 7
10) everything- the song that tells most about my mind
11) that's when - the song that tells hw you feel about life
.
.
COnclusion: Im not sure about the numbers 78 n 87..
But definitely true bout the rest.. haha.
IM feeling so slpy ryte nw.
Off to bed! :) -grins-

2007-08-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

2007-08-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

2007-08-26T13:02:00.000+08:00

--My Holidae part II--
Heheh.
A risk. But i had fun. :) -glows-
I like the time spent tgt. Sweet.
The travelling around was WOW!!
The bowling@JOM was great.
Headed to town.
Had a late,unhealthy dinner.
Umms.
Like KfC and BEN_N_JERRY's ice-cream (help? diet partner?)
ROARS...but hahaha. tis ok. once in a while :p
The BourneUtlimatum@TheCathay was kicking-awesome!
Went 'travelling' ard after that. HAha. Only he knows.
Oh well... :) x 10
Wish the date could lasts forever. -beams-
Thanks for everything, lover.

2007-08-24T11:26:00.000+08:00

---My Holidae part I---
Weeheehhhhhh....
It was a total relief after the exams (dou physio was suck)
Yeah.. After so long din play in the sun, ytd the UNglamourous Babes + 2 guys
went to sentosa. Celebrating dear Cheryl's bdae :)
HAd a kicking good time.
(Well not realli. cos i cant wear contact. BUt i was insistent on wearing my shades :p)
Had a smashing suprise for her-hard time cos we tot she might have long guess abt he suprise.
:)
The weather was great ytd.
THe sun was awesome. I so wana go tan but i noe i wont. :p
Soaked in the sun at noon till 4pm. hahahak.
We played captain's ball for 15 mins and panted all the wae.
Gosh. where's my stamina?!!!
Stayed in the water for most of the time.
I loveeeeeeeeee SEntosa.
THe water is so much better than at other beaches, can?
IT is soo like out-of spore kinda place.
Yeah!
LAlalalaa. IM so happy n tired after the 'soakin up in the sun' session.
I bet the rest had fun time too. :)
.
.
AND people!!!!! GUess wat?!!!!!
Todae i woke up feeling ache at my shoulders.
TO my DELIGHT -beams-...
I HAD A SUNBURN!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah BabY!!
it felt warm dere. FOr the 1 st time in my life! -beams-
I'd not gotten one before..so yep!!! :D
Lalalalalla
.
.
Now..im looking forward to spending my time at the beach w him.. :)
But Azri hates the beach. So i tink i hv to ask another guy for the company.
Uhuh...
Lalallaa.

2007-08-21T09:34:00.000+08:00

hurrah!!!!
been decade lah..since i blogged.
hehe.

Oh no! and tml is the last paper. damn tis physio.
MOst prob im gona flunk tat paper. rah!
LIke the agony of studying physio is not sufficient to make me feel down, i woke up w a swollen eye-lid dis morning. hw am i gg to sch w that heavy eyes?!!!!
OH no. wonder which lizard or cockroaches pee into my eye!
OH no! hope it will be ok by tml!!! roar!
My eyes hurt!!!!!!!!! :( :( :(

2007-07-29T19:41:00.000+08:00

sigh.
Wat a weekend. Long Weekend. A boring one. A very boring weekend.
Stayed hme all 2 daes.. studying Anat.
I can die of boredom.
SIgh.
I miss him so much.
Only 3.5 hrs tgt dis week.
MIss him so much.
We both gt sick dis week-thus no getting-out tgt.
I miss him THaT much.
TAke care, azri. GEt well soon.

2007-07-28T15:32:00.000+08:00

damn!
hahaa. Was supposed to study the joints..
BUt instead i played the DVD..
STOMP THE YARD.
Wayched in it 10 times. but i still loved it!
ahhhh!!! loved columbus short and chris brown!!
After that, went to source for the soundtracks!!
grrr.. DIn managed to find this particular OST!
sigh..
MY goD!!!!!
1 wish after i watch that dvd: I wana meet the 2 hot guys!!!

2007-07-27T23:05:00.000+08:00

OH no!!! Exams are sooooo near. OH no. But like in a week,hols cuming.

hehe. Optimistic.

Oh dear.Anatomy is killing me.

Physio is killing me softly.

oh well..

Study plans were distrupted cos i was hit my a flu bug. :(

And he is sick too :(

The world is getting Sicker dae by dae.

So todae.. skipped Fb again. Cos of my flu.

BUT tat din stop me from meeting up w my darlings- chien and peixi.

hahaha. So sweet. Ate like 'quality' food at banquet.

Budget. But we gt a lot of things to eat.

Char kuey tiao.

SUshi at banquet- ( i used my charm, 1000 megawatts smile, to gt discount from the uncle :p)

HAhaha. Ok. So chien accused me of being Thick-skin.

hahah. opps. So izzati.

So we ate that. plus fruits.

Hahahaha.

AFt dinner, we went to arcade to plae DAETONA. DArn! i gt the 3rd placing!

hehe. HAd fun w em. So MIss u guys! :)

YAy.. LOve u!

Me?

Counting down.. 27 daes left..

2007-07-23T19:15:00.000+08:00

Been so long sice i ve blogged. I hope i haven lost touch w it..hehe.
hmm.. shall start this month bloggin with updates wat i had done last week.
OH!! we watched TRANSFORMERS!! at amk. LIke suling said..king2 kang2 kong2. haha. IT wasssss AWWWWEEsooommeeeee. i felt tis better than HAIRY POTTER. A sad fact but tis true.
After movie, supposedly gota go for FB..but so the lazy hehe. So he sent me hme instead..
SAT..help at stall..n tot of gg to study ain the evening. Haha. So much for askin him to acc me at later time.
Instead he fetch me to wdlands to a study place. But we cud find one..so ended up..haha. went elsewhere. hehehe.
I get soo distracted with him around me. Dear.
Such an irresistable..temptation? hehehe.
OK> so 2 daes w/o much studying. N sundae, he had A DIKIR BARAT comp. from morning till nite. due to unnecessary breaks. I had to sneak out to the nearest lib to study during the barely 45 mins break while he n his grp-rehearsing and stuffs..
SO 730 his grp perform.. N he look damn aaahh... Been long since ive seen him up dere, playin.
Look good in that TANjak thingy.
He never fails to njoy himself n gave a goood,great show w his mates. BOy.
hehe.
N he confidently told me tat his grp wun get anithg for tat Comp.
The results announced-and his grps tgt w the jr grp, clinched most prizes. INcluding the first!!
:) :) :) HUrrAY! to ANDIKA!
They were damn happy-but i realli admire their teams for their good sportsmanship spirit and humble-ness.
Very heart-warming.
The supposedly-better playing grps were damn SORE losers. Left the hall w/o waiting for the top 3 prizes.
TIs reaali a heart-warming experience
Seeing ur loved-ones performin or doing things that they love and enjoy to do.
That's when u _____ them more and more, i guess.
HEHEH. :)

2007-07-15T14:06:00.000+08:00

So after a long weekend w 3 projects all done-except the written report.
Went out w my darlings to town in the morning. hahah.
cool.
hmmm.
Went shop ard. N i at last bought a necklace-tats all.
after that said bye to them and head towards azri for movie!
HArry potter... the much awaiting movie of the year.
So disappointing. BAhhh! Watch it w azri-duh at Cwp again..
hahaha. hmm..
haha. MY darlings being sooo cute n irritating. Msg me to tell me tat they saw me squeezing azri's butt! hahaha.
wow. DID i? Touched and squeeze his butt in the public? wow!
Using my police's instinct, i investigate the matter and ask em wat time..etc..when..
hahaha
N i had proved their point wrong cos when they saw us, me na saz had actually left the CP. Bleah!!
Soooo notty!
so we ate our dinner at IMM. Ate Steamboat. Heehe. NIce. BUt-eh..ok lor. yup..
tats all..
haha. Just to fill my blog-tats like been a long time since i updated. Yeah!
wished luck to my guy frens who has been enlisted to army. :)

HAppy happy to all.
U! Lup u Many-many!

2007-07-01T00:39:00.000+08:00

Ice,ice baby!!
Woohoo. Todae was a great, awesome dae for me and Phy!!
Wee...
We are those peeps who reaaalli kiasu bout the increase of the GST (wat the heck!)
So we rush down to Bugis-where tings are good,and cheapcheap.
Lotsa people dwn dere. Haha. We are not alone! :)
Wok ard w Ruben-her fren..but i cud find anithg nice. :(
He gota go sumwhere..n me n phy..reaali cheong ar.
hahaha. IN 1 hr, we saw like reaali nice tops.
I was about to give up in shoppin-firda and pj noe me. :)
Lucki Phy spur me on..haha..n we gt tops-4 tops each. She bought jeans-agn.
Woah!! i like!! For 4 tops..i spend relatively low todae..weeeeee!
Todae was the end of the world n yet..was a HAppy dae for 2 ladies.
Yay!! i wan more More more shoppin!!!
I wan shades=like the ones on the left!
Yes..tanks to cheryl,tis AVIATORS. hahaha.
Lots to cum--pig out party and shopping!

2007-06-30T00:37:00.000+08:00

OMg!!! haha! A terribly sinful dae todae. Phy? we try harder k? haha.
Oh..well,todae kinda chillin. Just 1 hr lesson. While waiting for 630 to go FB, I went to PHYPHY hse.
Act..we just wana buy lunch (Oh..hw innocent-we wana DIET!!! THAT was YTD's topic)
But we are so tempted by the snack-pea. So we bought tat.
The smell of durian was soooo overwhelming that we BOUGHT 3 durians-for 5 bucks!!! SEgamat durian ok!
hahaha..We were luffing-due to our silliness and all-and oh..we broke our diet routine!!
-those sinful delicacies apart from our main meal..
Went to her hse and had a PIG OUT party. Omg.
We were reaaali damn full. Cudnt even move. haha. OH N HER ROOM IS SOOOO COSY!!!!
n we had to go for ccas-like in 1 hr! hahahaha
WAT a dae..! reaali njoy w her-such a lovely HOST.
hahahah.
we shall hv no more durians in the future
Suling? Pulease help us control our diet? hehehehe.
Or else azri will call me-MOK. hahaha.
...SO fb tonite was reaali nice and fun..
BOy was i excited!!! yeeee...
Lets hv more PIG-OUT parties w cheryl n the gang!!!
OMG!!izzati?? 55kg..pls.

2007-06-24T12:22:00.000+08:00

woahhh..IM shag!

Kinda just gt back from FOREIGN BODIES camp ytd. Aint bad. Da word is FUN. hehe.

On the first dae..'BOOK IN' at one and the first ting we did was a pumpin position cos some jerks were late n still strolling in. Ouch my arms!! Aft so long din do some arm exercise, it was a good start. no? DEn start with ice breaking games. Gt to noe more n more peeps. im in grp 2!! hw suck. While the other 3 grps had so much fun w their cheers..ours was ' Alamak! y so slow? RELAX LAH' .....DOTS! n our grp name? DOTS>>>RElax lah. Yes tats the name!!!! like...ermm..wat???? Gt the name from a grp mate's shirt which reads-RELAX lah. OMG. Some of the gerls-inc me were so paiseh-but cud do nthg. GAmes..dodge balls..mine games. Applaud to the spirit that we displayed but i guess..we gt discrimintaed. WAdever w that. Aft dinner at KOUFU, we started out w our DAnce classes. First was a class where they expose us to diff hiphop techniques. I Love the KRunk!!!! hmm..wat else. THe kerb!!! i cant do it! its like the shift of the heels and ur bores. Coordination. Sucks. gota practice that. Aft the 1.5 hrs cls, we went to another class,to learn bout dance n expression. Just love a senior's spirit. haha. she was so fun. Let all out during dancin. oh boy..that class ended like at 2300 hrs..all were shag out. WEnt to shower w a fren at a deserted toilet at the carpark. When we gt in we r so shock to noe that 2 of our guy frens were at the gerls shower! like wat the heck!! haha. N the rest..u fig out urself..hoh. at 12, most peeps were hungry tat they went for a MASS MAcdonald order. MY super ego said no to food at midnite. My ID said..y not. Ended up i just ordered oni apple pie. I gt so sleepy that i ate it the nxt morning...

2nd dae/..was woahh... Started out a PT!!! RUN 3 rounds. Shucks!!! my staminA!!! n we did some exercise etc. After bfst of bread n tarts (tarts?!!),we had some games-again. I got so DIIIRRRTTY. sank my face in the flour..n we played like water games. HW irritating. We had to protect our macsot-a pretty one. ahaha. but we lose out. .. gt wet n drenched... after that...we had DANCE calss. REGGAE_ I HATE. But the class of LOCKING n FUNK music was GRRRREEEAt-by IAN. awesome. awesome.awesome. aat nite..we had nite wok-scary nite wok.I was freaked out. our turn came ard 12 MIDNITE!! in grps of 4-n im the oni 1-hu close m y ears. The snrs dressed up n reaali looked like ghosts themselves....woah. everyone done oni at 2am. all so shag... reaali a hard interesting n tiring dae...

ON sat..all still so shag-short sleeping hours.Lucky no PT tat morning. ate some bfst w Fb and i gtg for my driving. Met azri,hi also jsu finish his duty. take the train tgt, nbye2. Head back hme n slept for 2 hrs and den go driving.. At nite.went to GENTARASA, a musical at RP w him. OK for me.I guess the PENTAS last yr was better. BUt he loves it aniwae. hehe. anithg for you. yep...

My week was ok. HOls cuming to an end...Tml id cuming. Driving in the morning. Shit. test cuming..

Signing out....IM shag.

-i love you-

2007-06-18T22:29:00.000+08:00

oh
oh
oh

Nthg different. Yet nt a bad dae.

Met up a long long time sec sch fren-yazid for lunch.
i tink im born to wait for my frens and at times,him. :)
He haven reali changed. Called me sthg tat reali throw me off-guard. woah.
Went to PIzza hut. Hehs. For budgettin purpose,we took up the student meals.
Apparently i just knew we both like cheese a lot!
U know..the ones at pizza hut. In the bottle.
Initially he tot he was the weird one. But not animore when he saw i,too was pouring cheese like..MAD.
Haha. POured snowballs of it!
Two hours dere felt like a quick one. Tok bout N.S tingy. Bout guys. Bout gerls.
Haha.
At 5, i intro him to azri.
Was my dearie shock? i duno. haha.
Said bye and me n azri went to yakun-yes,i ate again. :p
Aft tat went ard cwp. He bought his pouch nad bought me a water bottle. Sentimental values. haha
It reali feels gd to ride public transport with him.
haha. He smells niceeee!
Sent him to yck for werk..bye darl.
Waiting for the bus,a guy asked me if im interested in modelling.
haha. me?whoops! errr...no.
Lucky my bus came just in time!
TAta!..
oh..i want more of train n bus rides w you..

-Im waiting for you-

2007-06-17T21:18:00.000+08:00

my weekends are soo boring. i hate dis.
trying hard to study physiology. reali hard.
I stoned.
n realised stg.
sigh.sigh.sigh.

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.
.
.
hunn, i miss it.

2007-06-16T19:29:00.000+08:00

I duno.. do we look happy gg for the outing or wat?

After the Treasure Hunt..still look :) despite of the pangs in my tummy

Me and chip-n-dale-babe. Yes.. fad with her fave pose. haha
N suling? i duno.. hehehe

Oh... Thurs was exhausting. Tot of not gg to the OTs outing but..heck.
Hey.. but i Tink i had great fun, running ard,looking for clues. Tis been long since i hunt for tings!!! yay!!
Feeling burnt n all...the UNGlamS went to cindy's hse..did project. hahaha. We slacked n all.
Aft tat..went for FB.NOt bad. The new routine.. BUt i felt shit. BAhhhh!!

I wana go town!!!!!!! bah.. agn.. 3 times in a row..aft daes of planning to watch movie dere.
Picturing in my head wat a great dae it will b to take bus n the train with him.. hehe. :).
:0. But..oohh. Three daes of his whole dae off..hes gona hv operations. Not as if its his fault.
So-BOO izzati. 2 weeks hols.
No town with him. im so sad. Nxt time.
When? I duno. the nxt sem break?

2007-06-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

I WANT!!!

....to meet pj n firda (YAyyyy!! cant wait for fridae!)

....to go town w him n watch movie n slack n eat n shop n shop :)

....to buy sunglass n tops !!

....to buy 3 quarters

....to buy the grey top at far-east

gRrRrRrrrrR

The running ard to gt the TING is wearing me out. Went agn in evening w Phy. Were greeted by a super duper annoying, irritating, rrrude old man at the reception. His attitude- a huge turn OFF. After haf an hr of waiting, onli to be told that they din hv what i wan. Damn! Gota run sumwhere for it! So far!!! GGrrrr. Nvm.

Rum-uh-pum-pum. Tis 2 week break but it seems like no break at all. BUt ok.. I WANA GO OUT WIT U!!! heheh. taking care peeps..

N You. Love u loads.. Happy happy us. OInk.

2007-06-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

----- Weekends were boring. Except the part i met chien n ah xi :)

Went to siam kitchen at lot 1 for lunch. did some catching up. Im so hapi we r the same

like hw we used to be. :)

After that...feeling bored, we travelled dwn to town for a retail therapy.

Hehe!! So wana shop. But u noe.. tis so izzati. Tok so much but din realli shop.

Lookin out for tops n sunglasses but nah~

To dear peixi..Hope u get well soon. :)

----- Sundae, went john little w my bros n mum. Woah!! first time i BUy my own bra lor. heheh.

Oopps! tis was sooo hard just to find the ryte one. REaali.

Took me like an hr plus. Hehes. Gt one my own. Stg new.. sssss hehhe.

------ SO todae, had the last hurray2 time. Went for movie w the UNGLAMS. Shrek 3. hehhe.

it wasnt exactly a great one. bUT i had a gd luff. hahaa. After getting a present for alesia..

i headed to wdland to meet him.. uhuh.

RElli interesting experience he told me..

Aniwae..im so glad that my the other gg for another round. Prayin the best for you mr policeman!!

----Shit. Nw i gota study for my exams etc. Darn. Projects loads n loads.. sigh..

~it takes no time to fall in love,but it takes u years to know what love is...

2007-06-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

Im so Depressed. Freaking depressed. Only dey noe.

OMg. I had not feel dis way for ages..!

Exams-Physio's the worst

Revision- ANAtomy (memorise.. kaox)

Projects?- dun mention it. tons!! Ottp esp. WAtever!

Dis week is such a horrible, depressing week. Thank gdness nxt wk's hols. But i tink the hols will be more more more stressing one. Wat sun? Wat beach? Wat slacking? I dun tink so. N uma put it so simply tat we hv to hv fun! Ryte. Likereal. With Ottp and chinese ICA and Psychology?

Shit! im having an FB camp too. SO many things to do!!

Like phy alwaes sae.." oh!! tis the end of the world!!! '' haha. Funny her.

Feeling all stressed up...We forget our exercise routine. Tis reaali a bz period to even tink abt running! thus having the " Diet PLan'' helps.

No motivation. NO loved ones to turn to. Tis even depressing when i go back hme-hungry-and theres NO food to eat. EVery day.

Worse everybody's beginning to be irritating. Im like So Highly irritable. Reaali wana expload in their face.

Tis even harder when u tell ppl u r very stressed and all they can sae were...' huh? stress?' as if dey were saying tat we r joking. OR ''aiya..dun stress lah.'' It aint tat simple. grrr. tis been long time since the rain drops. Till todae. Deres more to cum..but i'll b strong-tgt w him.

Tanks to my bro n phy too! Lotsa encouragement dere..n the listening ear. When i xpect him to cum, tis other hu hear me out.

-I nEEd yoU-

2007-06-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

Happy happy us.. Aft OTTP presentation! hahah

More pics..fun ones. Feels like the end of endless projects

Whoops!! GAns and the Goons. ME!! in my dad's shirt!

2007-06-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

First of all..congrats to my babes for havin done with their Malae presentation. Very well. :)

Hols coming in few daes. Time past fast. We are 'celebrating' our 2 months ann of frenship :)

But we all noe..hols (tis just 2 wks!) is passing fast. With projects cumin up. With tests and exam..blabla.

Sigh. CAmp w FB cuming up too. My 3rd TP (yes..sigh).

A secret DAte..Hehehe.

But I wana hav fUN!! yay!! Under the sun..slacking.

OH!! n to my dearie..havin n important day cuming up too, this June. Praying for the best.

To my firda and peijun---- I MIss You!!

To My chien and Peixi-----I wana mit you!!

To my Azri... i _ _ _ _ you!! :)

2007-05-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

Trust is wat bonded friendship.
So much for trusting.
Wadever.
Im H.U.R.T.
Thanks for everything.

Song:Sumwhere onli we know
Artist: Keane

I came across a fallen tree I felt the branches of it looking at me?

Is this the place we used to love?

Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

....A beginning tats awesomely cool, is this just it?

2007-05-29T17:09:00.000+08:00

Wat can be more depressing than dis week?

A biomechs test which brought us to the end of the world !! (Am i dead or wat?)
Not spending time with boyfren for about a week ( Peaceful? abit. Lonely cos din mit up w him? God noes.
Worried sick for a boyfren- with a sudden fever ( So terrified outa my life)
Reachin hme before 5pm (Boring..)
Sortin out my money ( Sian Chap Puey)

2007-05-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

MY friDAE Cant b MOre BettER!...

OUch!! My leg muscles-knee and thighs- are killing me!!!! So weak lah.

Went for the FB pract jus nw! Cool dance moves. haha. But i was like..dance dance den eh? wats the nxt step? hahaha. Reaali nice. The worst was the warm up. Emphasis on the knee. WhoA!! im like suffering... BAh!

OH!!! N the BIGGIE NEWS!!
hehehe!! MY group ended our OTTP presentation!!! YAY. ( Just a moment to rejoice cos deres like tons of presentn waiting :(
I realli throw my face lah. haha. Realli bo chap but my image liao.
Act as unhealthy MR Gan. I smoked. I sat like reali , cho teng.
Glad we realli managed to humour the audience.
Got criticised by HL. :(. But Wadever! tis not even Graded! Duhhhh.....
YAy!! But whole ting was superb.

DAmn! Gota werk tml. Sigh.
Hitting my pillow.
With .. AChing... Weak Legs.
I swear tml tis gona b worse!!
Good nites, buddies! :)

N to him too.
~....tis impossible to ignore you. Must u make me love so much..~

2007-05-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

-Im shag-
Tanx eh dear, tknk tolong update!
Feel so laggin in dis bloggin thingy.

Dis whole week worried and exhausted.
Preparing of Fridae's OTTP presentation. and the BIOmechs test aka exam.
Been focusing lotsa on OTTP. SCrewed up. Disorganized. Messy.
Like todae, den settle the flow of everyone's part.
So tml the dae to throw our face. Cos we gona.. ACT! hehe. ok. Prae hard. WE gona do the BEST!

ONe major prob. Biomechs. LIke OMG. Its like the first and the last and the oni paper for the sub-module. Izzat-u either make it or NTHG!
SHAG.
Tml, having FB pract. SHAG. The nxt 3 daes, gona cheong for the test.
LIfe's in poly nv easy-n so ive learnt-dis 6 weeks in nyp.
One down..tons of projects and exams to go.. :(

But, im kinda like it dis wae. Feels the school goin on tingy. Love gettin bz.
Morning....go school...mug in sch till late...go hme....slp...
N the cycle goes on.
BUt for nw, im SHAG.

-The shaggy? girl-
Stup name. but wadever.

2007-05-20T11:13:00.000+08:00

My Fridae-YAY!!

Did Projects. BUT tats not the point.

i went for FOREIGN BODIES 1st PRACTICE!! yay!!

theres like 50 over peeps selected. Packed the the dance room. yeehee!! Were asked to do 4 counts of 8. Puzzling at first. BUt i truly crazily TURN ON (not by guys) but the atmospere and the attitudes of the dancers! ROCk on!! i was so high when danced w the grp, displaying our moves! BURNing HOT!

MAE dis interest last-unlike the past!! hehe :)

_ROck YOur BOdy_

MY SATUrdAEE- =)

ALAS!! aft few times of postponing.. me and HIM went for kayaking at yishun!! weehee!! i likEEE!!

Realli nice. the weather. the person u re with.. <3

Went to watch BLADES of GLORY b4hand. hahaha. I like. I bet he likes it too!! hilarious!! tis been long i ate POPcorn n jUMBO HOTdoG! hehehe. SO much for dieting on weekdaes!

(it so happen tat i eat considerably more oni when hes ard :)

YAY!! i like.. sigh n now for the ppt of ootp. yikes!! n dis wk got mug for BIOMECHS test!! DArn!! zHAO! :)

2007-05-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

Fat. Full.

BooHoo!! heheh. to tink tat ytd me n phyll run and todae we ate oni 2 pieces of thosai for lunch!! orite! nv felt healthy!

Met my darlings after school at cwp. you gerls had so much fun looking n browsing at my Anat bOok, ryte!! hahha. they reaali love it. i just cant stand the gross pics. yucks. dou i noe, tis like OUR ting. hahha.

ate at SeOul GArden. fooo!! like wat!! im fat as ever. but tis ok!! oni for u, darl! ate sushi etc. some ppl just so greedy w the sushi. like hello!! others want some too.. We tok tok, bitch bitch, so fun.. hahah..

Met my darls online agn.. hahaha did stg. ssshh. tis between us.

NanOt called me to show she had bought a LEVIS jeans!! grrr. like real one. when am i gona hv a real one-not from KL. So sad.

Levis..

Levis...

I cant believe. im tired but no-gt projects to werk on.

Biomech test on the wae.- Good Luck to me- i shall werk hard.

2007-05-13T21:28:00.001+08:00

Weehee!! Ytd, i had a great nite out! as in After midnite tingy. Woohoo! Slept at my ahma hse w fazli. Got bored.

aND so.. we asked my guy for supper at changi village! cool. I so wana c the 'bapoks' dere!! My the other fetched us ard 1 n wee..he drove us dere. Ate some nasi lemak at 2!! kaox!! haha FAT!

(Tis such a great ting i met azri. He realli brings me to places i nv been to b4. For eg..eating Nasi leamk at changi vill. Rox!! the chilli paste like POWER!! heheh)

ok. Heres the exciting part of the nite. we headed back to our van. Saw 3 bapoks being confronted by an angmoh drunkard! Basket! hehe

i was like so xcited. den suddenli the stupid drunkard approached us!! haha! wat the hell lah! myu face turned pale! yikes!!! hahaa. ok. aszri n fazli protected mem n bibik. Me? holding his arm n persuaded him to Protect my dear life! But azri was so cool lah. hahaha! my cuz too!! woah! close shave!! hehhe.

Along the wae out, we saw some sSExY BAbes! even hotter than me!! hahaha. in bikini tops.. so pretty. wonder when i can get dere.. :p

2007-05-13T21:28:00.000+08:00

Weehee!! Ytd, i had a great nite out! as in After midnite tingy. Woohoo! Slept at my ahma hse w fazli. Got bored.

aND so.. we asked my guy for supper at changi village! cool. I so wana c the 'bapoks' dere!! My the other fetched us ard 1 n wee..he drove us dere. Ate some nasi lemak at 2!! kaox!! haha FAT!

(Tis such a great ting i met azri. He realli brings me to places i nv been to b4. For eg..eating Nasi leamk at changi vill. Rox!! the chill paste like POWER!! heheh)

ok. Heres the exciting part of the nite. we headed back to our van. Saw 3 bapoks being confronted by an angmog drunkard! hehe

Along the wae out, we saw some sSExY BAbes! even hotter than me!! hahaha. in bikini tops.. so pretty. wonder when i can get dere.. :p

2007-05-10T08:17:00.000+08:00

Shyt! Shyt!!!!!! Great morning. BAd StART!!!

GGGRRRR!

Went into SUm IrrITating **t** blog.

A perSon in my HAte-list ever!!

Im Fuming!!

Hah!! Such RoSEy Werds. ryte.

Im M. A. D.

Downryte MAD.

hAh! Pricked by a thorn of a black Rose!

Get it?

Suck.

2007-05-10T08:16:00.000+08:00

2007-05-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

hehe..tis been long uh! hey babes!! :>

oh boy oh boy! time past so fast! 4th week of sch.. yepyep! ...

haha.started out dis week pretty fun fun fun!! bubblY Bub!! On tuesdae, the gerls were like contemplating whether to go for the movie screening bout an autistic boy.. ended up me, ale,cindy,suling n phy watched. haha. tot i was gona regret it but no!! Tis like the show suppose to be sthg's we hv to learn n observe. But i dinnoe it wud b soooooo funny and sad n touchin at the same time!! me n cindy were like crying all the wae. stop. luff n cry all over again.. aaah... tis reaali nice.

N oh! got the result for the audition for the dance grp liao! got selected. YABa YAbA!! but am still tinkin n considerin to join. the practice's nxt wk.... hmmmm..

N tml, havin anatomy pract!! dead bodies. got study the tings ltr or else!! *gasp!!

n tml is his 22nd bdae!! yay!!!!! So old eh bro???!!! hehhehe.

yupyup!!! gota hit the books.

2007-05-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

Had a pretty fun and exciting week. and short too!

Fridae-- hehe!~ i cant believe it! i donated blood at nyp's drive. so cool! tanks to my dear cheryl n alesia. haha. they like gave me moral support..trying to distract me by holding my hands n take pics! haha. i tink im the oni one dere hu had frens surrounding me! hw lucky! Felt dizzy aft tat dou.

Fridae at 6.00: i went for the Foreign Bodies audition. tot of nt gg. but went for the fun of it n acc Kap n Ind. The grp is so so cOol! damn! i was like doing their routine when my head n nose ache. Maeb the effects of post-blood donation. Result's on Mondae. Yep.

Saturdae at 0700: When for werk! haha Creepy. Me n my kids tot we hear noises just outside the room. n im sure i'd lock the front door! Freak. so i called my supervisor. n the kids' rxn was makin me more KanCheong than EvEr!! haha

11.00: Met my darls.. watched spiderman 3 at cine. ok lah..6.5/10? Too draggy at the beginning. The death of _____(suspense) almost made me cry. hahah. so eMo! Went jln2 w the babes.. Kinda tired,my feet aches. Ate at Ramen Ten..sushi? yumMy!! hehe.. Went hme ard 8.. Had fun w em.. Love ya!!

....Haven chat w my dear. Just a couple of calling2. yup. Werkin nite shift. hmm.. Kinda miss him :(

~ Nv get enough..You're the sweetest drug~

2007-05-03T19:03:00.000+08:00

Xcited for 3 daes.

LesSon learnt: Nv be too hopeful

2007-05-02T22:22:00.000+08:00

Months after months,week after week, daes after daes of growing fat..hehe.. izzat finally run!! oh..babey!
Todae, after class, w e gt lucky. Me..cheryl..alesia and cindy when for a gud gud gud run at our campus track! Woohoo! it feels so great and lousy at the same time. WE managed to ncourage each other to run 4 rounds. After a year of not running..leaving my tummy to bulge, it feels great to START even. Foo. Cherl..cheryl. SHe;s so the sporty type but haha..so funny. But hey. everyone do good in different areas of sports.
--Todae's running session truly reminded me of the daes when i USED TO run 12-15 rounds at the pjc track. HAhah. Dose were the daes. NEtball training. WE pushed each other. n having my dear chien fern to scold me. heheh.

I want to get back to tat shape. So do cheryl n cindy. haha. MAe our plan to get sexy, babelicious body works!! To prepare for year 2 Module!! Rox..

So gerls. PLease. Lets do it tgt!! yumyum!!

2007-04-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

don't know where to begin I don't know how to get out there to see you I don't know where to dig in I don't know how to get in there...to feel you It's been too long and I'm about to be in time for me It's been too long and I'm in time

Baby there's something about you that I can hold on to I'm going to hold on to that x2

I never thought I would win I never thought much about that (It's been a long time coming) I never stopped to begin Thinking about the process (It's been a long time coming)

Baby there's something about you that I can hold on to I'm going to hold on to that And I'm going to be there...be there...alright I don't know where to begin I don't know how to get out there to see you

Is this it?

2007-04-27T21:46:00.000+08:00

We are worried people.

"i just cant imagine myself,being so professional''

"yes!! i agree! i mean, i realli still im still so..juvenile"

"im not the sort, who thinks out of the box.We need to think during critical period"

"sigh.."

...n so me,cheryl,cindy,suling n alesia were in grief moments after we attended the O.T Dialogue. Our seniors project themselves with confidence. Whereas..US? Boy. Seriously, at 20, im feeling very juvenile.

Maybe people grow with time and experience.

Maybe some day, we'll become someone mature and at such a level of...sophisticatedness.

Maybe.

-------------------------------

Projects are coming up real fast.

This Poly experience is worse than in JC.

Pull thru', izzati.

2007-04-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

hehehe!! n so we went for a class outing todae!!! huuray!! i love the class spirit!! tot of gg ecp but end up when vivocity!! yeah!! hehe. nt long b4 we had fun when it rained. hahahs. gota go underneath the shelter. yep yep. i love it!! went to shop2 w cindy awhile. she bought her bf sthg. aft tat went hme. hehehhe yeah!!

u go ot2!!

2007-04-22T09:44:00.000+08:00

Saturdae morning started early fer me. Went back to nyp for a OT orientation. Had fun noeing the OTs frm nxt class. got wet. got phyll wet too! hahha. had so much fun. tank gdness im attached. heheh. the games till noon. so hungry but i ate bit of mee. I miss the sun so so much more. Still contemplating whether to take up D.B

(Frens, take note that ive improved on my vocabs!!!. haha. I tink)

Aft tat, went to his hse. His parents asked me along to make specs for him at jb. Went dere at 4 n yep. Jams n all. hes gotten dis really cool specs. his dad is so cool. the specs-with transition lens- for his upcomin bdae. Lucky guy. n he still wana buy a sunglass. hahaha. had so much fun. Luff bt stup tings. Can u blive it? the peeps over dere jus smoke-like no body business-in the air-connditon area. SSo irritating!! like wat the heck!

Head for dinner at ORANG ASLI seafood place. hehhe. so nice! tis like a remote area at jb. they hav this KERANG so huge!! in thai sauce. YUmmy!! argh.. i tink i tink im getting fat day by day. DAMN!! but ytd dinner was xception lah. hehhee.

THe days when i spoke to him the least is when we go out w his parents. He wud js sit at the corner of the car n slp or jus kip quiet. contrasting to me, i'll be the one doing the tokin n all.. haha. but tis veri veri fun n funny. great outin ytd.

todae, tis my turn to go out w my mum n bro. dad gg to plae golf. my other sibs went to batam!! good. yep.

Tomolo, havin a cls outin aft class at ECP. haha damn! tis very far, no?

but tis ok. its the class spirit that counts!! hahaha

2007-04-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

The Art of S.O.C.I.O.L.O.G.Y

I hate her. Her attitude sucks. Big Time. Freak. Selfish. Idiotic.

LIke wassup?!! Din bother to do anithg in the hse. Xcept in n out of the house. Irritating. Din do any hse chores. Stup.

He. Deviant. Loved. Pampered.

Im owaes put in the spot of having to understand people.

HAh!

J.U.S.T S.I.CK. O.F H.A.V.I.N.G TO U.N.D.E.R.S.T.A.N.D.I.N.G E.M

2007-04-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

Todae...

Had a lesson called BEHAVIOURAL SCIENCE. Sociology. Firda. this is for you! hahaha.Like wat? OCC therapy gt to do w sociology. Tot tis gona b a BBBorrring lecture. Tank gdness the lecturer was very fun. I understood the concept very well. U noe.. society bla bla bla.

THe lecture was cut short. Shud hv like gone hme.. but nah~. Me n the gerls ate our lunch n head for the CLLLUUBB CRAWL. hehhe. sooo hyper n happening. Wondering which cca i shud join.. wok ard..pretty gerls handsome guys. REaaallli wana join this hip-hop crew, FOREIGN BODIES. their dance so cool. BUt hell, their so JAp lah. the wae thay wear n all. phyllis sae tat she, tot cant relate w em. BYe bye to my dream cca.

Signed up for DRAgon boat!! haha. cool. i wana keep fit lah. N also dis STAGE arts! which has dance too! cool. Phyllis n cindy n the rest signed up for DB too. suprising.

Tot of not going for this Library tour-well it sounds stup. TAnks for the class' unity, most din go. But poor Phyllis has her conscience pricked haha. Speakin of turnin over a new leaf! yes! n so we acc her. Indeed it was BBoring.. BBBBooring.

Aft tat went hme straight. MY significant other was sick n thus gt mc for 2 daes. sounds serious. din noe it cud b tat crious... oh boy.. hmm. Rest well, k?

I wana RRUUNN...criously. my stamina is ZERO.

2007-04-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

Oh! School starts. So xciting.But nw..*sigh. So different from JC life!5 modules. shit. duno how im gona survive-what!-biomechanics!for nw, i cant c the link to Occupational Therapy.No physics background..im so screwed up! Izzat-pls dun gt disheartened.

So..in my cls, there's like more pretty pretty ladies-compared to guys.

hahas. they are simply gorgeous. esp the ones i hang out with.

Some of the gerls realli, realli reminded me of my darlings n fello pioneers...

phyllis= chien fern... very demure. haha. sophisticated.
cindy=jacintha...
Alesia=Peixi

Hahaha. cool ryte! Im feeling so sick todae. dwn wit flu n cough. kept sneezin durin lessons. *sigh. so sick i wished i cud've just rested at home..

LUckily our 4 hrs of lessons were cut short to 2 hrs..hahas. so tired lah. i wana go Home!! but when the gerls in my class asked to join in the fun of grabbing up the FrEe Ben n Jerry's ice cream cone at novena.I CUD NOT RESIST it. haha. the tot of FREE ice cream 'cured' me for say..an hr. hehe. DAmn long q. irritating lah dose students. so kiasu. after getting one, they lined up to get more free cones!

OUr turn came, n i chose the choc fudge brownie-sthg like tat. hehe. so indulging. take few pics n we went back hme gleefully. haha. w me feeling sick-again.

Met w my lovely other,eat dineer at banquet. no appetite.

nw,im so sick. tot of not gg to sch. Hey i hav a very gud reason! hehe. but kinda feel bad lah. I mean tis just 3 rd dae of sch!! Hav a gud nyte rest, little one..

-Life is a box of chocs...-

one year of us.

2007-04-15T11:28:00.000+08:00

Fridae- had my orientation at nyp. oklah. loads of nursing students. gosh. deres like, wat, oni 2 classes of OT. most of my classmates are gerls. ok. U noe, orientation. Hw boring dey cn b. tok n tok. As pj had said. Orientation is kinda fake. U gota give a fake smile to the peeps ard u, hu happen to b ur classmates. haha. tank god some of the gerls are of age 20. hehhee. at least im not soo old. damn! sensitive issue dere.

Fridae-13.04. Azri was sick! Just when i tot we wud hv a gd date! haha. tis ok dear. tot of dragging him to the clinic but he refused. DEn stg happen. hahha. Stg i seldom do. I escaped frm the orientation haf-wae. hehee. nt bad izzati. first step to being a bad bad gerl! haha. Whoops!

Went to cwp. waiting for him. tis so funny. He had nv seen me in SKIRT.Bcos i nv wear one BEfOre!So to give him a suprise..just for tat dae, i Wore ONe. A skirt i bought w pj n firda.IM not sure if he was shocked. haha. His reaction was funny. he looked at me w his small eyes. kekeke. -.- . kept lookin at me n sae '' hw cum u wear so nicely on first dae of sch.." n etc..

BUt..the ting he din noe is i wear the skirt just before i met him. so u get it, honey? hahah.

Poor azri was feeling sick tat we gota cut the date short.but tis ok.Din get my 6288. or choc waffle.but tis stg veri ..(hmm..) sweet. Maceh!!

ONe yeaR

2007-04-10T19:38:00.000+08:00

hehe.. Memories of the past one year. Sweet. Salty. Bitter. Everythg.

13.4.06.

Great journey. with a Great guy.

To my Significant other: U r amazing.

Bah!! Meetin wit my twin!

2007-04-10T18:57:00.000+08:00

Bah!! Meeting my Twin!!

Alas! Ive sent in my enrolment package for nyp. kookoo. Managed to ask hadi out n acc me to nyp. been a long long time i met him,haha, my twin bruder. He haven change a bit. Seem dere was loads of tings to tok.

His CD life, but malae guys-dey do dis n tat etc. MY oh My. Tis amazing hw fast time flies. Hadi n the gang gona ORD like in Jan. hahaha. kaox. it seemed like it was ytd when we left Pjc.

BOut the people, hu used to be in PJC. hahha. i missed dose moments. During the A level preparation. THE CHIObus- peijun, firda n me ( dun luff,tis true! haha) + hadi, zul, fahmi. Dey truly rox!! hahha. supposed to be studyin n ended up, joking n making stupid tings... oohh. dose were the younger daes. keke. after tat, we wok to amk, eat our lunch at RAMEN 10.

(Wonder why nowadaes,i din hav any appetite. )

Hadi-dun worie. U'll find her one dae.. hehhe. Maeb keep a look out during out duty.

Aft tat, went to cp. Tot of buying SOMETHING. but, still cant find THe ONe.. THen went to Nokia Care- to save my Hp.. haix but no hope ler. WAna buy new phone..no money. Anione? wana sponsor? hehhe. 6288 Only. hehehe.

Tup,tup. tis 2007. GOsh. MAe dis year, i will hv a better year. better than 2006- year of disappointment n etc.. Conclusion: not a gd year.

2 daes more. WOw. wow. wow.

Tricky. im still tinkin.

.......

2007-04-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

NOT AGAIN!

Im feeling

insecured
haunted
disturbed

...all because of it. I tried not to...but every minute of my life,was n is shadowed by her. Maeb tis my nature. Just so inferior.

PISCES----Sensitive to others. Easily angered (depends on WHO factor).Trustworthy. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings.

Im sick. sick. sick.

Just GET OUT!

New Life -starting

2007-04-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

-Maeb He has his own plan layin down for me- tis FATE.

HURRAH!! FinaLLY!!
Aft i had werk so much to complete my Tp in HTM diploma, the much long awaited moment came at last!!!! DAmn slow lah. NYP!! has accepted me! wwwooohhhoooo!! i was like jumping n jumpin like siao charbo at cp-cathay. lucki my guy is bside me to calm me dwn! kekeke.

Tanks to my cus lydd, hu help me w everyth! heheh.
at last i got my dream course-kinda-Occupational therapy. hehehe. u noe, werkin w people, touched their hearts! hahaha u go gerl!!!

:) LOVE foR oneself is important! haha.

So 16the april is my Big dae!! weee!! NYP pretty convenient for me.. nearer than TP at tampines. Fooo... NO. nyp is very convenient for me. for Us. hehe. yup. Im so looking forward to nxt week. Xciting daes. Xciting occasions. Kinda plan like some stuff for this Fridae, but O well, having some Orientation tingy gg on. sigh.. perhaps aft the Orientn prog.

Having gg to sch-dis time is very different for me. NEw LIFE. New SCh. NEW Friends. NEw STArt. n nw wat ever i do..affects my significant the other..

*chuckle. still rmb i-tgt with darling peijun n firda or Chien n ahxi n lilin wud-u noe LOOKing at other guys. " orh.tat guy is hot etc. hahah. still rmb the last dae of sch at pjc. hahah gave secret letter to my eye candy w chien-i tink. hahah. soooo FUnnY!! aaahh.. n u noe we wud hv several eye candy at the same time. haha well.. GERLS! but NO nO izzat. haha not dis time. shes happily with Just ONE guy. HIM. (DUN wori,you boy) Hahahaha!

OKIes. gtg. haha. till nxt time.. Woohoo! i LOVE my life-well, part of it. hehehe.

tired,fun n fun n a Full tummy!

2007-03-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

ooohh yeah.. hows life,babes?!

been havin great weekends dis week. foo.. chuckle. Sat, was a rather tiring dae.. sigh. started out with hrs at the care centre. went dere,with the HoPe of not havin many kids to take care-Alone. HopE that i wud get to play my computer game-haha! (wat a care-taker aka teacher am i) ..but all my hopes got dashed. Daym! happily eaten my 2nd piece of Mac's pancake n facing my fave game when.."Ding Dong!!" aiya!! . it was just ten mins of time alone dere. dese kids! so early come..for wat. op in 2 kids. at 9am,2 more kids. total=4.

At 9.45, came in one gerl with a leg-pai kah. ok. so here comes trouble.. gota fetch one boy frm nxt block & fetch a gerl frm her sch---Both at 11.30!! wah!! stress! im lyke alone..shit. with 5 kids tgt wit me..how? i cant leave em alone in the classrm! ok. tink izzat. tink izzat. So at 11.25, im waitin for the boy to return but..5 mins..10 mins. aiya!! he's late. how bt the gerl!!??? poor little gerl. n so MIss Izzati tgt w 4 kids n a paikah gerl STRUGGLING to fetch the gerl at her sch-5 mins wok. n dis paikah gerl REFUSED to let me carry her!! kaox. like im so rushin for time!! y is she soooo stubborn! n so aft squeezin my brain out, i tot the best solution nw is to take cab.. yaya.stup. when tis like so a short distance.--all bcos of dis paikah gerl.

WAt a dae! fuuuhh! aft dae at the class, my lovely the other initiate gg sentosa, cos he got 2 free tix for the Carlsberg skytower! woohoo!! so cool. nv i tot we wud get up dere. well not realli awesome lah. i m,ean.. u noe.. spore.. watsdere reaaalli a landscape to view..

Sunday aftnn i went for dinner with His parents. hehehe. yup. his Dad Bdae. gRabbed a bdae cake for his dad at cp n we headed out to clarke quay. reaalli nice to eat by the river. but if tis nitetime-wud b much beta. ate at an indo restaurant.. WWOOOH! im lyke damn FFull. ate like 2 chicken thigh.. was full in no time..feel like vomittin cos the sauce was just sweet. aft the meal, we went wok wok by the river n went window shoppin n look at the shooping centre cum residential buildin tat his DAd been managing the development. Awesome huh! hehehe. bought ice cream, kaox.. SINFUL. cookies n cream. luckily shared w his mom n him.

Tis so nice-to spend time w his parents. haha the bonding 2 n all. u noe. Azri wud be quiet most of the time. LOL. sooo unlike him. well, honey.12 more daes. hheeehhe. had n awesome time w him & his family...

~ tis all unbelievable,n i dun wana let it go..
i feel like uve owaes been forever a part of me..
tis all unbelievable, to finally be in love with sumone i nv tot i'd be~

BuGis

2007-03-27T08:38:00.000+08:00

Woah..! wat a messy hair there. kekek. ytd was a long dae. kinda tired aft helpin at the stall n gg werk. hehe but i met my darls at bugis ytd for shop2 for stuffs. heheh.when rounds at the bugis market..im so on im-on-a shopping-mood but y did i bring less money! saw bags,purse,shoes,belts etc. im so gg on a mission to buy loads more! bOth of em bought skirt too!
sigh..lost my atm card that staurday. boohoo. im sooo careless. i bet i accidentally throw it down the rubbish bin after i had deposit my cash..
yeah..im feelin all tired. tink nid somedaes to stay at the beach n tan myself. hahahk!
woohoo..!
tats all folks.. takin care!

Stomp the yard-again!!!!

2007-03-26T08:03:00.000+08:00

Weee...guez wat?! i had watch Stomp The Yard the 2nd time ytd! haha. supposed to meet one of my frens but she cudnt came n so i called my significant one to meet at wm. haha. wanted to watch mr bean initially but the kids lah,the parents lah,guys n gerls came in seas to watch em first. no seats so i managed to persuade him to watch MY DJ williams again. hahah. Boy! isnt he upset cos he wanted to watch rowan atkinson instead. hehe. i was lyke still in awe, n was droolin when dj danced n tok. he's such a heart-throb!(that bsides my guy,hehe) the beat of the songs,damn!weremt they hot!
n as dj said in the movie & my dear peijun typed in her blog---"gama hu? one word. BITChES!" ahhh..hahaha i was like still luffin n amused! if only spore has dose step comp,i wud be the first to join,no? heheh. aft biddin my DJ buhbye at 9, we went for a sinful western food at the Lestari at bb. hehhe yumyum! but the fries are so so small! hmph! but it was nice. aft the meal, azri rushed me hme b4 10 cos MY UGly Betty is waitin for me!!! isnt the show hot! i havent miss anitng since tis debut!-until ytd! lol. i watched oni half of it- n when i realised,tis 1100. damn! i'd missed the endin lah. tannks to my sleepy eyes..sigh. haha...
yup...well..tis rainin outside nw! im soooo lazy to go help out at the stall...but heck. i gotta. in the aftnn,i gotta go mit up wit my kids at fajar. great! aft tat, meeting up my 2 darlings later at bugis to shop2 for our 'secret' stuffs. kekeke. yup. woohoo!!
countin down..abt 19 more daezzzz..uhuh! heheh..
signin out!! <3

BAh!!! again!

2007-03-25T08:52:00.000+08:00

boo hoo!!! ytd was tragic. sat for my 2nd.2nd driving test. yup i failed!!!!!! iwas so so so pissed.!!! stup tester! my face,i cud feel was so burning hot as he,the fat one,de brief me. " u can drive....but try nxt time" hell yeah! no azri ard.. not a single soul i knew ard. n so i went out of the building n cried so so badli behind the wall. if oni hes dere, sure i wud sink my face in his shoulder.. sigh..
n i called azri, my dad, n my cuz,lydd. ooohhh. it was as if i disappointed everyone. i was sobbing hard on the fone.. took so much courage to go into bbdc to book my nxt test -AGAIN. feel like givin up but tanks to dose people hu ncourage me...
dun feel like helpin ny parents at the stall but i did. aft time at the stall, he asked me if i wana go jb.. hahaha. tat lightens me up. mum n dad sent me hme, n i got ready for the date. he fetched me n we went jb tgt2.. heheh. i love the moments when we travel by bus! tis like im ridin an adventure..i duno. hahaha. tis so hard to urge him to take bus w me when we go out.
we were like tiinkin hw much dollars to change. cos he wanted to buy me bag dere n makan-ing dere.. reach jb ard 5.. wok at city square to find my bag.. grrr. not a single nice ones! so irritating lah. u noe hws the shop dere. he wanted to buy a wallet,unsuprisingly too, deres not a nice one. so we ate at Season's. tis like swensen but the portion is sooooo small! i ate dis cheese baked rice..(hahs indulgin my self cos i hadn't eaten for the dae) tis like 15.90 RInggit. but it was small! cheat ppl lah! overall ok lah. he wasnt happi w his share too. tis lyke kids' meal!! goSh!!
feeling so hungry, grab me a YAMI yoghurt..n wok to his fave hangouts,when he goes here w his buddies bhind the jb buildings. so mani foodstalls. tis like kinda dirty. but heck. i luurve it. so the chilling2! grab 4 cups of drinks n cockles n sotong chilli. tat makes me full. yum2!!! we head to spore-withOut any new stuffs in hand. lucky dere wasn't a human jams at the immigration..
all in all i had my fair share of the ugly n beautiful moments ytd.. haix.. pick up urself,lady! uhuh ;)

2007-03-21T08:01:00.000+08:00

keke.. tis is so cool!!! tanks to my dalings! such precious tings..precious frens ! dey hu help me,dis it idiot!setting up dis blogs! heheh.. *muahx!

2007-03-21T00:00:00.001+08:00

hello!! im trying real hard!