To her,

I know i've been defeated. Yes. All my mistakes, which u've kept inside you for the past 2 years finally explode and you dropped the bombshell on me.

I acknowledged that. The last opportunity was not given to repent and make up, but it's okie. I'll try to stabilize myself. It' will be a very slow painful healing journey for me.

The once boyfriend of hers is now on his knees, trying to get up very slowly.

Izzati, I still love you. Though you may have hurt me in this way, I've forgiven you. All your mistakes, I've forgiven them. I don't want you to be hurt further dear.

Thanks for for giving me such a wonderful memories throughout these 2 years. Thanks for teaching me what's love is really like. If only I can have the chance once again, I would like love you all over again. . .if only. . . .

Thanks for guiding me my way around. All these wonderful memories will always be deeply ethced in my heart. And I shall only remember all this wonderful ones.

I'm a change man now. I've learnt my painful lesson once again, this time, it's even painful.

You have all the qualities I look for in a long term relationship. You just hit it off so well with my parents. Espcially my mum, she has been asking me about you. She longs to see you. Definitely I won't be able to find a girl, which has all your qualities, not typical, fun, romantic, mature and all of it. You just have all of it.

Thanks for standing by me throughout my NS life. Thanks for being there for me when I needed you. You just make my life complete, but now, it's empty once again.

Thanks for teaching me what respect it. I value the lessons you've taught me.

I'm a changed man now. Whatever I promised you before this, I will honour my word. I'll still visit your parents. My heart is asking forgiveness from your parents. Hakim and haikal, I miss them but I will spend time with them. I don't want to disappear just like that from their life. At least let me be a big brother to them cos I've never had a taste of what sibling love and real parent love is like.

The warmth I get from your parents and bibik is just so unbelieveable. Even nyai and yai. I've never tasted that kind of warmth in my 23 years of life. I'll really miss that very much.

Let time prove to you how much I've change. True I can't turn back time and edit the mistakes I've done towards you, but at least I can make it up and repay for all my sins that I've commited towards you.

It was never your mistake from the start. You've always been the one for me. The ONE. But it seems that it's never to be forever even though I hope for it very much, from day to day.

I'll be waiting for you here dear. I just don't want you to make harsh decision and be hurt again. I know whatever I'm saying now will not change you a bit. Neither will it make you think. I'm really suffering here. Alone and I've lose the person closest to my heart. You have someone new to turn to, but not me.

But I just hope one day, HE(god) will open up your heart and bring the two of us together again. Perhaps, by then, you'll come to realise that this is the change Azri and that the change is a sincere one and it's not just for the sake of changing it.And that this Azri is willing to love you all over again. Insyallah.

Everyday, I pray for that.

Thx Chien for listening to me. You too Peijun.

What I've promised you, I shall honour that promise. I respect you for who you are, and not for what you are. Time and space that you've always wanted, you'll have lot's of it in future.

But please, I beg you, not to remove the ring on your finger. You'll always have a special place in my heart where you belong. I'll still be your special friend for you to confide in me for just about anything.

I'll be here for you dearest Izzati. I'm typing this entry with tears rolling down my eyes. Yes I know I'm not romantic, handsome all that, but I know how to love someone deep down.

I miss you saying 'I miss you'
I miss you saying 'I love you'

And now, I don't get to hear that from you ever again. I'll just have to look at your pictures and messages to comfort myself and to just playback the wonderful memories I have with you to make me smile.

I'll be here waiting for you quietly. I love you Izzati come what may.

Signing off,
Azri.

To her,

I know i've been defeated. Yes. All my mistakes, which u've kept inside you for the past 2 years finally explode and you dropped the bombshell on me.

I acknowledged that. The last opportunity was not given to repent and make up, but it's okie. I'll try to stabilize myself. It' will be a very slow painful healing journey for me.

The once boyfriend of hers is now on his knees, trying to get up very slowly.

Izzati, I still love you. Though you may have hurt me in this way, I've forgiven you. All your mistakes, I've forgiven them. I don't want you to be hurt further dear.

Thanks for for giving me such a wonderful memories throughout these 2 years. Thanks for teaching me what's love is really like. If only I can have the chance once again, I would like love you all over again. . .if only. . . .

Thanks for guiding me my way around. All these wonderful memories will always be deeply ethced in my heart. And I shall only remember all this wonderful ones.

I'm a change man now. I've learnt my painful lesson once again, this time, it's even painful.

You have all the qualities I look for in a long term relationship. You just hit it off so well with my parents. Espcially my mum, she has been asking me about you. She longs to see you. Definitely I won't be able to find a girl, which has all your qualities, not typical, fun, romantic, mature and all of it. You just have all of it.

Thanks for standing by me throughout my NS life. Thanks for being there for me when I needed you. You just make my life complete, but now, it's empty once again.

Thanks for teaching me what respect it. I value the lessons you've taught me.

I'm a changed man now. Whatever I promised you before this, I will honour my word. I'll still visit your parents. My heart is asking forgiveness from your parents. Hakim and haikal, I miss them but I will spend time with them. I don't want to disappear just like that from their life. At least let me be a big brother to them cos I've never had a taste of what sibling love and real parent love is like.

The warmth I get from your parents and bibik is just so unbelieveable. Even nyai and yai. I've never tasted that kind of warmth in my 23 years of life. I'll really miss that very much.

Let time prove to you how much I've change. True I can't turn back time and edit the mistakes I've done towards you, but at least I can make it up and repay for all my sins that I've commited towards you.

It was never your mistake from the start. You've always been the one for me. The ONE. But it seems that it's never to be forever even though I hope for it very much, from day to day.

I'll be waiting for you here dear. I just don't want you to make harsh decision and be hurt again. I know whatever I'm saying now will not change you a bit. Neither will it make you think. I'm really suffering here. Alone and I've lose the person closest to my heart. You have someone new to turn to, but not me.

But I just hope one day, HE(god) will open up your heart and bring the two of us together again. Perhaps, by then, you'll come to realise that this is the change Azri and that the change is a sincere one and it's not just for the sake of changing it.And that this Azri is willing to love you all over again. Insyallah.

Everyday, I pray for that.

Thx Chien for listening to me. You too Peijun.

What I've promised you, I shall honour that promise. I respect you for who you are, and not for what you are. Time and space that you've always wanted, you'll have lot's of it in future.

But please, I beg you, not to remove the ring on your finger. You'll always have a special place in my heart where you belong. I'll still be your special friend for you to confide in me for just about anything.

I'll be here for you dearest Izzati. I'm typing this entry with tears rolling down my eyes. Yes I know I'm not romantic, handsome all that, but I know how to love someone deep down.

I miss you saying 'I miss you'
I miss you saying 'I love you'

And now, I don't get to hear that from you ever again. I'll just have to look at your pictures and messages to comfort myself and to just playback the wonderful memories I have with you to make me smile.

I'll be here waiting for you quietly. I love you Izzati come what may.

Signing off,
Azri.